I Don't Give A Damn!

Warning: if you were able to read that dirty word above, and are not used to read obscene and dirty words, please don't dare to read this blog! This contains some words that you might not consider reading.

I don't give a damn to those people who won't accept me of who I am or for what I am!

I know that we all came from the different walks of life. Some of us came from tycoons of intellectual abilities who are sometimes neglected by people because they possess the highest standards when it comes to the real word. Some of us came from the lowest class of individuals that if will not end up satisfied and changed with new acquaintances, will end up curling on their room, cold and socially dead because they have no one to run into. Some of us may be so flexible and possess a lot of capabilities and are not just mentally but socially aware of the recent situations others are facing, but at the end of everything, stays on the coldest room, hugging his Mickey Mouse pillow, letting the little mouse soak wet with tears of frustrations because he was not able to accomplish some task and the likes.   

But honestly, who cares about that? Who gives a damn f*cking care about that? Who gives even an ample serious and honest time for you if all other people are also busy with their own prejudiced priorities in life?

I have been existing for more than 18 pissed-full years in this frustrating world. I have gone through a lot of social casualties like setting of a bridge because one of my long lost closest friends was not able to come at my place on my birthday party but spent his time somewhere else. I have known a lot of people that shaped me most to what I am now (not the gay thing). I have been to many places that created a deep impact in my beliefs (f*ck it!) that caused hostile environment among us.

Lately, because of the demand of net surfing and the availability of such, I learned about this certain organization or something (I don't really know the correct term, but let's just call them that way) that made my ear and consciousness aroused. I'm referring to the illuminati.   

After spending a lot of time and jeopardizing some of my priorities, I got hooked up on the principles and the fundamentals of the organization, and I somewhat search on the significance of their symbols and hand signals. But f*ck! I am not one of them. I am not f*cking one of them like many people are thinking.

Then came another religion issue. To be honest, I am not a religious man. I can't even go to church regularly like any other saints or sinners do. I do not even know some of the basics of religion. But come on! Does that affect my belief in God if I listen or am aware of this shitty antichrist organizations in the world? Does that make me a f*cking illuminati if I read and search about them? I don't f*cking think so.

I respect those people who firmly believes in things like faith and the likes. But what is the use of respect if they themselves never respect you? What is the use of respect if they themselves spend a lot of time with their faith, but never spare even an ample time with people who needs their acceptance? 

Who cares by the way? What the hell cares if you know these things? How the hell can you be one of them if you are just aware that they do exist? I just can't help but feel mad about this things. One of my fellows told me to just stop, like never listen to gaga songs. Seriously? Are we practicing autocracy here? Hypocrites! You only know gaga as an evil woman, but still listen to all those artists that are all so f*cked up antichrists!    

I thought my only problem is the fact that I belong to the third sex, facing problems like you will never be accepted in their world will be spared due to the sophisticated minds of people. I never feel accepted for Juan's sake! I never feel free to do the things normal gay people do! I never feel free to be who I am! I always feel controlled by the people whom I thought deserves the respect. I always feel far from the real world, like I was living in my own fantasy, away from the prejudiced and biased lair that ever existed.

You may not accept me right now, or won't even accept me tomorrow. But for f*ck's sake! I don't give a damn!